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kerk_hiraethTITLE: Chasing Cars
AUTHOR: kerk hiraeth
LENGTH: 200
FANDOM: GL's / Kdramas
CHARACTERS/'SHIP: OC's (there are three)
A/N: This idea is a variation on something I've been writing, and re-writing, in my head for well over two years. Sometimes they are Thai; sometimes Filipina; sometimes Korean. This will also, hopefully become something else one day. Even the title changed several times as I have been trying to write this version. The characters have names. I do not know them yet, and may never do so. All three have pretty full back stories; all in my head ~ some of which is finally down on paper, metaphorically speaking.
This was written for Halfamoon; intended for 2025 Day 1 prompt; Fashion it actually feels, now that I have this as finished as I feel it can be, more fitting for lasy year's Day 1 prompt Black/White, but particularly, Shades of Grey.
ADDENDUM: I came to the conclusion this was a good fit for Halfamoon, but it will go up there for Day 14 prompt, First Loves.
As with a mirror crack'd my memories are dis... jointed.
She was wearing a younger boys shorts, and a soccer jersey; at least one size too big.
For him.
She was at least a head shorter than me; more than a head taller than me the last time we were together at her eighteenth birthday party.
She was dressed in red then too; Calvin Klein boxers I'd bought her.
But I can't remember her.
What she sees is a ghost.
I ran.
She stayed and fought.
I don't know the woman she became.
And I do not remember the girl she loved.
That ghost in her head.
That girl died the night she got on her knees for the price of a bowl of soup.
I see the love we had in the photographs, but I don't remember her.
I don't know her.
Do you imagine I want her to know what I became.
After twenty years I am not that girl; not even a woman really.
I am what I became that night.
Can you hold her?
If you do nothing else; hold her the way I did once, the way she...
The way I wish I could.
Goddess watch over you,
kerk
I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
(lyrics from October by Evanescence)
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Date: 2025-02-02 02:21 am (UTC)PS- Make sure you post a link on
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Date: 2025-02-03 08:47 pm (UTC)It feels nice to finally have something from this original GL'inspired' world finally somewhere concrete, or as solid as anything can be in this increasingly senseless online world.
Feels like the story worlds are the only place where I have any hope.
kerk
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Date: 2025-02-02 09:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-02-03 08:52 pm (UTC)Almost every line is pared down from ideas I've been going over, repeatedly, all that time.
Getting something down on paper; then getting a draft typed up and posted felt good.
I'm actually fascinated at the realisation that none of the three characters have told me their names; none of the ones I've got in my head as part of their back stories have either.
Almost as if my muse is trying to keep me interested :-)
kerk
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Date: 2025-02-02 09:51 am (UTC)I think I have to read it a few more times to really let it sink in.
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Date: 2025-02-03 08:56 pm (UTC)I only realised I still didn't know their names, and had not even given any of the characters incidental to their back stories names.
As I got each draft pencilled in; each felt like a different story direction potentially.
Even this version took a different direction from what I intended when I typed up that draft.
I think the title changed a half dozen times before I decided on this one.
kerk