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     NOT WAVING BUT DROWNING 
     by Stevie Smith


   Nobody heard him, the dead man,   
  But still he lay moaning:
  I was much further out than you thought   
  And not waving but drowning.
 
  Poor chap, he always loved larking 
  And now he’s dead
  It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,   
  They said.
 
  Oh, no no no, it was too cold always   
  (Still the dead one lay moaning)   
  I was much too far out all my life   
  And not waving but drowning.



    Stevie Smith, “Not Waving but Drowning” from Collected Poems of Stevie Smith. Copyright © 1972 

















     










   timnawoollard.com/personal/paintings/not-waving-but-drowning










   May the Goddess watch over you, and those you love, 

   kerk hiraeth












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    Sonnet Twenty-Nine 
    from Sonnets from the Portugese 
    by Elizabeth Barrett Browning 


    I think of thee -- my thoughts do twine and bud 
    About thee, as wild vines, about a tree 
    Put out broad leaves, and soon there's nought to see 
    Except the straggling green which hides the wood, 
    Yet, O my palm-tree, be it understood 
    I will not have my thoughts instead of thee 
    Who art dearer; better rather instantly 
    Renew thy presence. As a strong tree should, 
    Rustle thy boughs and set thy trunk all bare, 
    And let these bands of greenery which insphere thee 
    Drop heavily down -- burst, shattered, everywhere. 
    Because, in this deep joy to see and hear thee 
    And breathe within thy shadow a new air, 
    I do not think of thee -- I am too near thee. 



    So much to say, cannot seem to find them. People who speak to me infrequently, some I barely know, and seem closer to me than family who live a few minutes walk away and I never speak to at all. 

    Who am I to complain? 

    kerk 

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     TITLE: Espírito Santo

     AUTHOR: kerk_hiraeth

     FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

     LENGTH: 350;

    CHARACTERS(s): Lisa; Dawn Summers;

    'SHIP(s): Dawn/Lisa;

    SUMMARY: Lisa is a semi-fanatical Earper, but the love of her life hates anything fictional about the Supernatural, until she comes up with a way to distract Dawn on the anniversary of her Mom's death. Given the dates; this is therefore set in a couple of months time.

    A/N: Listening to music videos to spark ideas, a song written and performed by Dominique Provost-Chalkley finally lit the touch paper. Lift Your Spirit Up; written for 2019's Seasons of Love, made me think of one partner (Lisa, Dawn's friend from The Body) trying to lift the spirits of her significant other up. The creator's role in Wynonna Earp and my joyful, and sometimes very tearful, reactions to the many reaction videos to the Wayhaught reunion scenes in S4, Ep2; Friends in Low Places, woke my muse from a long slumber (I am convinced she is at the very least bisexual; possibly trans, and also very possibly lesbian).

    I have also no doubt she is obsessed with Wayhaught.

    So this is dedicated to Dominique Provost-Chalkley; Katherine Barrell and Emily Andras, but also very much to all the Earpers; especially Wayhaught fans, who saved their show where Firefly fans failed; not that I would want to change the magic that was the one season we got but I feel so much joy in what they are experiencing right now.

    This is for you ~ and I swear before the Goddess that the song listed was playing when I was finishing this post ( though it did change before I could press post).

 

 

     “A show about Demons? Seriously?

 

   Her Dawnie's voice was cracking a little; never voiced, today was always a reminder of how much she missed her Mom. Lisa never knew her own; never actually met Dawnie's either, but she felt both losses today more than any other.

 

   “Because I love it?

 

   Dawn glowered; swore under her breath, but gave away her inner glow that betrayed how much she loved her Reflection. Everything one liked the other liked the opposite, and they loved each other all the more for it. They shared as much too, but they loved to find things to surprise and challenge each other.

 

   At the smirk on her face her Dawnie gave Lisa the finger.

 

   Lisa grinned; she had her. More than anything else her Dawnie needed distractions today and, in nearly twenty years together she had become a Jedi Master at picking exactly what her Dawnie needed on this anniversary of anniversaries.

 

   The kids were off with Slayers and their kids; they had the apartment, and bedroom, all to themselves.

 

   Lisa started the episode she had handpicked for tonight; no point trying to get Dawnie to watch the whole series; that was never going to happen, maybe binge watching fanvids, but not whole episodes.

 

   Might as well try to get her to watch a movie about Vampire Slayers. Lisa almost snorted her drink at the mere thought of trying that one.

 

   Of course Dawnie whined the whole time...

 

   Until Nicole Haught and Waverly Earp were reunited, and never made it to the bedroom.

 

   Even Lisa, who must have watched this a dozen times, was overcome by the Wayhaught reunion.

 

   They could almost feel each other's hearts beating faster as they stared, totally oblivious to the rest of the episode.

 

   They were speechless; their breathing audible, even over the end titles and they glistened with sweat.

 

   Five minutes after the screen slipped to powersave they had still barely moved.

 

   Slowly Lisa reached to turn the device off properly.

 

   “So, “ she hissed, “Bedroom?

 

   Dawnie stared at her as if she had gone insane.

 

   “Wishing we had some stairs?

 

   Dawnie managed to croak, “Uh huh...

 

   At least they had a floor.

 

 

     waverley and nicole embraciing

 

     Goddess watch over us all,

 

     kerk

 

 

   Now in my

   heart I

   see clearly

 

   a beautiful

   face

   shining back on me,

 

   stained

   with love

 

                     - Sappho

 

 

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    TITLE: The Briefest of Heroes

    AUTHOR: kerk_hiraeth

    FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer;

    LENGTH: 350;

    CHARACTER(s): OC; Willow Rosenberg; Kennedy;

    SHIP(s): Willow/Kennedy;

    SUMMARY: Amongst all the Slayers being born; what happens to one who comes into her powers alone; untrained and unfound. This is a brief account of one such abandoned hero.

    A/N: This is set in a world where the Slayers and the Watchers are engaged in a; mostly cold, civil war. In this 'verse Tara is alive, but long separated from Willow; Faith is still in Buffy's body and vice-versa, but only really Tara and Faith of the major players still believe she is alive and are also the only ones still trying to find her.

     For the purposes of this story it's worth noting that there are splits which are further exacerbating the progress of dark forces; entropy and chaos. It is, by implication, set in the USA in the summer of 2020; it could equally be set somewhere in the Arab world during the Arab Spring, or during apartheid era South Africa, and could have been set at a protest in the US; France; Germany or the UK, or far too many places in the world for far too long.

     It is dedicated to the citizens of Ferguson; Marsha P. Thompson and Sylvia Rivera; George Floyd; Sandra Bland; MeToo; Stonewall and the surviors of persecution everywhere.

    This is not a happy story with a happy ending.

    The image is here used because though it's nowhere stated is, in my head, a muslim refugee; abducted and trafficked.

 

 

     She did not know where she was.

   Cool, with none of the humid warmth she was used to.

 

   Home.

   She remembered a home.

   Not the place of her birth.

 

   Even her Sister had not had that memory.

   Death met in a boat's depths.

   Tossed overboard; cursed wastage.

 

   She had a name too.

   Nought the Men cared.

   A real name.

   She had forgotten her own as well.

 

   It was dark here.

   Cold and harsh.

   Sharpness slashing her feet.

 

   Steadily down; step after painful, bloodied step.

   Shock froze her as she felt freedom's grasp.

   And took her; disoriented, toward a sea of noise.

   Turned a corner; into crashing waves of people.

 

   She had not conceived the world held so many.

   The camp had not prepared her.

   They had reached water and found Hell.

 

   Toes touched cold, hard glass.

   Reaching down she picked up the bottle.

   She drank.

   It burned bitter, but it refreshed.

 

   She sensed the ebbing of the tide of Humanity.

   Stepped into the gap created.

   Turning from them she found a faceless line of armored... people?

   Weapons raised.

 

   She paused.

   They paused.

   The crowd behind her paused.

   The world froze.

 

   The faceless weapons took a step.

   She did not retreat.

   Those behind cried louder.

   She felt their desperation; rage, pulse through her.

 

   The power building within her burst free.

   Energised every cell; to the least particle of her being.

   Instinct guided her hand to a jagged piece of hard wood.

 

   Desperate; Fearful; Angry; Righteous.

   Her skin burned with their need for justice.

   Fury enveloped her.

   Teeth bared in the face of the Demons, she snarled.

 

   She screeched like a fiery sea bird.

   Arm raised, the crowd roared.

 

   Berserker; she charged.

 

    ~~~

 

   Kennedy caught her; hand wiped sweat from her brow.

   Willow was barely able to shake her head.

   Blanket laid around her naked torso she collapsed into her lover's chest.

   Attempting comfort Kenn said she could try again in the morning.

   Willow sobbed silently; knowing different.

   Another Slayer had slipped away.

   Gone.

   Another nameless girl lost to their insanity.

 

   Fallen.

   Falling.

   Failing.

 

   Water was closing overhead.

   Would she find land?

 

   Would they find harbor?

 

 

    Dua when in distress; in English, from the Qu'ran

 

     Goddess watch over us all, 

     kerk

 

    ps. Elisi, on reading this; or the immediate version anyway, back in June commented with a couple of lines from this https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47311/the-waste-land which I unconsciously echoed; even though I had not read it for twenty year, I think.

    These are the lines :-

    ~ A crowd flowed over London Bridge, so many,

     I had not thought death had undone so many. ~ 

 

 

 

 


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     TITLE: Lover's Dance

   AUTHOR: kerk_hiraeth

   FANDOM: Doctor Who (2005);

   CHARACTER(s): Sally Sparrow; Billy Shipton;

   LENGTH: 100;

   SUMMARY: This is a love song to the Sally Shipton that never got to be, and the Sally Sparrow who loved despite her broken heart. This is her Nightingale song.

   A/N: This is one of my favourites of my own; for personal reasons it also causes me some grief. I've written a couple of other Sally Sparrow nee Shipton fics; one of which needs to be extensively re-written (as opposed to the editing that I seem incapable of stopping myself from performing.

          Sorry if it seems a little sad, but it's about life and appreciating love; even if you only get to know what it means for a short time, even if only for one night.

 

     Sally Sparrow died that night. 
   
Old stopped being sad.
   Old stopped being fun.

   Sally Shipton lived forever in a few hours.
   Never born to die.
   But she lived for him; her Bill.

   Billy lived for an entire lifetime.
   In her heart.
   Both young and old.

   Grey-haired; eyes shining with laughter.
   Beautiful eyes that she never stopped loving.
   She loved her life, for him.

   It could never be her Bill though.
   But she lived for him; loved for him.
   She danced through life, for her Bill.

   Always holding those old hands tight.
   Loving her life and dancing the whole night through.
   For her Bill.

 


     
Dedicated to Louis Mahoney who I only discovered today passed away this summer ~ https://tardis.fandom.com/wiki/Louis_Mahoney who, along with Michael Obiora helped create one of the most tragically beautiful couples; with Carey Mulligan in just a few short scenes between DI Billy Shipton and Sally Sparrow. There can be very few love stories told in so few words and visual experiences; that seem yet to be everlasting in our hearts.

 

   Here is the poem from which the title is derived.

 

     A Lover's Dance

     by Ernsalite Menard

 

    A lover's dance is patient and kind.
    It feeds your heart, soul and mind.
    It brings you joy and happiness within,
    Knowing that he or she will be with you
    Through thick and thin.

    A lover's dance can be recaptured
    Only if the partner's heart has not been
    Fractured.

    A lover's dance has no mistakes.
    It plays no one, not even games.

    A lover's dance is slow and kind,
    Easy to learn but hard to find.

    A lover's dance.

 

 

     © Ernsalite Menard (Published; February 2006)

      https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/a-lovers-dance

 

 

 

    Goddess, ne me quitte pas,

       Back view of Sally Sparrow talking to Billy Shipton, both young and old

    kerk 






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   SONNET 6 from HOLY SONNETS: DIVINE MEDITATIONS by John Donne (1572-1631) 

 

   Death be not proud, though some have called thee

   Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not soe,

   For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow,

   Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill mee;

   From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee,

   Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,

   And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,

   Rest of their bones, and soules deliverie.

   Thou art slave to Fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,

   And dost with poyson, warre, and sickness dwell,

   And poppie, or charmes can make us sleepe as well,

   And better than thy stroake; why swell'st thou then?

   One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,

   And death shall be no more, Death thou shalt die.

 

 

  kerk_hiraeth 

 

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   Last of three poems for Transgender Day of Remembrance. 

    

   

   Formally Known

     Who they were is no more

     formally known before passing

     resurrected at the bequest

     of one person, their very self

     the butterfly is born to fly

     from the form that came before

     once thought the perfect shape

     normality then transformed

 

     the questing one journeyed far

     beyond the walls that defined

     security beloved by all

     now the chains that hindered life

     cast aside though some may ask

     the garbs then worn to replace

     manacles no longer bound

     to discover freedom's bliss

 

     now the conflict has been resolved

     the balance turned to find itself

     when safeguards are not enough

     what once nurtured is denied

     disregarded for health's sake

     the deepest lies are unwound

     when the mask is out aside

     one shall live, the other dies.

 

   © 2018. Sean Green. All Rights Reserved. 20180618.

   The poem “Formally Known” was inspired by my friends who are discovering their identities, Sean Green



    


    kerk hiraeth 
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   Second of three poems to commemorate Transgender Day of Remembrance 2018. 


      Freedom by Megan Rae

      Freedom

        I hear your voices screaming,

        saying that I'm a monster, some disgusting thing

        But I am more than you allow me to be.

 

        I am brave, I am a phoenix,

        I'm rising from these ashes of my lies.

        A life wasted in regret, fear, and self-condemnation.

 

        Now that I am unmasked.

        you choose to ostracize, belittle, and reject.

        Your words cannot touch me now.

 

        I am more than a number,

        a “thing” you can stake a claim to.

        I am a human being with a soul, with a name.

 

        My sin was hiding the truth.

        But now that it is in the light,

        You hate that you can no longer control me.

 

        I am free.

 

    

     kerk hiraeth 

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First of three poems I have just looked for and found for the Transgender of Remembrance.

 

 

FTM by Aaron

 

FTM

 

I am male

I am human

the word “Girl” is like getting stabbed in the chest.

 

Getting called a girl

a lady

a female

but no, I am male.

 

People don't understand the pain of dysphoria

they don't understand the pain,

getting called the wrong name

or the wrong gender.

 

People say it's

a phase

it's a choice,

but they will never understand,

I was born this way.

 

I can't change who I am and I don't want to

I am transgender

I am human

I am proud.

 

 

written by Aaron (14 & FTM)

 

 

 

 

kerk hiraeth

 

 


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     This, after a time, became the inspiration behind my characterisation of Faith in the FemaleHusband!verse.

 

   It comes from Act 1, Scene 2 of William Shakespeare's The Tempest; best version of which; on screen at least; not seen a stage version as of yet, was that starring Helen Mirren.

 

 

     Ariel's Song

 

   Come unto these yellow sands,

   And takes these hands :

   Curtsied when you have, and kiss'd,

   The wild waves whist,

   Foot it fealty here and there ;

   And, sweet sprites, the burden bear.

   Hark, hark!

   Bow, wow,

   The watch-dogs bark :

   Bow, wow,

   Hark, hark! I hear

   The strain of strutting Chanticleer

   Cry, Cock-a-diddle-dow.

 

 

     In an early image I have of the Faith in that 'verse, she is thinking of herself as “having come back to be Tara's faithful guard-dog”; though she takes over from another stalwart of Buffy fandom with apparent equanimity enough, and indeed comes to discover sides to her own self-identity that she never would have seen if she had not returned to the Slayer fold. 


   Though my muse has been very uncommunicative since February of last year I still very much hope that 2018 will not be my first barren year for more than a decade. 


     kerk hiraeth 

 

 

 

 

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  As soon as I saw this amongst the half-dozen postcards with poems released by the Scottish Poetry Library for National Poetry day I knew I had to send it to [personal profile] elisi , even though it's in Scots and both of us are going to have to do a bit of exploratory translating to get the full gist of it. I have posted off the postcard this came on, as well as a full set of the poems for this year but, as I knew they wouldn't arrive in time for the day itself and I wanted to doubly make sure she saw it before this weekend I decided to finally post something on this DW. 

  So here 'tis. 


  Doctor Wha 
     Wha's Doctor Wha? Whabetter kens nor he 
  that jouks the yetts and rides the birlin wheels 
  a time and space, shape-shiftin as he reels 
  through endless versions o reality? 
  Bit dis he ken himsel? Weel, mibbe sae, 
  yet wha's tae ken gin aw that's kent by Wha 
  maks mair or less or better sense ava 
  nor whit we ithers ken, or think we dae? 
  The universe is fou o parallels: 
  wha's like us? Hunners? Thoosans? We oorsels 
  micht be mere glisks o life-forms yet tae be. 
  Whit's real? Whaur's here? 
  When's noo? Wha's quick or deid? 
  Wha's jist a thactie in anither's heid? 
  Wha's Doctor Wha? Wha better kens nor s/he? 

   James Robertson 


   Hope you enjoy both poem and Jodie Whittaker's debut. 

   Kerk Hiraeth

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